Fading Feelings... Bleaching Life.

Evertime I look up into the sky, strangely... I feel somehow distressed. Today, the sky also looked glum -- all white, as if it had no emotion at all. Everything pretty much felt bitter. My mind kept on wandering around in circles -- what was happening to life? Again, everything was bleaching, the colours seemed to be fading away. The atmosphere -- which before it was full of cheer and happiness -- became dull and boring!

But the worst thing that I experienced was "that". For some reason, my friends talk lesser to me -- especially my friends on Facebook. They became lifeless when we conversed. It made me feel sad and worried. Each time we talked, I really hoped for myself to bring out a good conversation -- but stupid me, I wasn't able to do it. Perhaps I felt too pathetic to start a conversation. To be honest, I really had no idea what to talk about.

Perhaps... this is what that person told me. About the dulling life. About the fading emotions.
But I don't want that to happen! Why? Why does this happen when I live my life to the fullest? Why does the excitement fade away just when I smile and bring out the true me? Why does the colours of the emotions bleach just when I realized about my true feelings?

It's absolutely not fair!

As everything became duller and blank, my feelings for that person began to... fade away as well. I cannot feel the heart-thumping footsteps anymore. I cannot blush like a used to anymore. I cannot smile widely anymore. But the most horrible thing is, I cannot express my feelings and emotions anymore.

Will everything I held between my hands... become dissolved?

I don't want life to become colourless.
I don't want my friends to become sad.
I don't want the world to become dull.
I don't want my feelings for that person to fade away!

Will someone listen to my distress? Perhaps Allah will. Perhaps they will.